I was so angry at Mr. D.S. when I made the biggest joke for my life

I never know I would see Mr. D after how I reacted on 2008's Christmas eve...the crazy Clipse, the unacceptable Clipse!

And I went crazy again on 2009 April's fool, I was drunk, the truth (or my excuse)behind my reaction for that night was, a guy asked me to be his girlfriend! My feeling was like, what?!? I treated you as a friend, how dare are you? everyone knows that I love Mr. D , why are you asking me that? And that's not even a month after I came back from Australia, and I only know that guy for 2 weeks......but , that's not the first time I face this question, never understand what guys think, and I believe I can never understand! As I will never like a guy if he got someone he loves~ what's the point?

Friends did tell me that guys think I can be a challenge, but am I ? really? Jesus!Till tonight, I can say I still miss him, I still need to hold the pooh he gave me to make myself to go to sleep......

back to April's fool 2009......I was so angry that I was not beside Mr. D at that moment. with no double, I was so angry for the whole on-and-off relationship with Mr.D, he always let me felt like he would only treat me good when his friends and family are not able to be with him, of course, I was native at that time, so native! I was spoiled by my ex Bfs before I met Mr. D.......

after all the alcohol and the shock from a "friend",   I sent him two shocking e-mails which I still regret today.