9 July 2011

I keep smiling, because I don't want anyone to feel my sadness

Now, people around me think that I devote myself to career in some level......

Yet, friends sometimes mistake some male friends as my potential boyfriends...that's good!I am sick of telling any person in the world how sorry I am...even......I feel the same way till today......I feel sorry for what I have done on a April's fool, the biggest joke in my life......

even today, I miss him badly......still......


However......
I will never let myself to contact him, as......he will never let me to "contact" him, unless he wants to contact me again......I have learn this theory clearly after the first few fights with him......

It's sad....but what I can do is....to sit and wait as always......To wait for his return or to wait for my mind forget him in total!

see which one comes faster this time......

(p.s. I know it's been a long long time......)