Even she tried so hard to escape from my arm when I first held her, yet, after a while, she was settled down, and even slept peacefully in my arms.
My crazy sis kept saying that if I am lucky, I could have give birth to my own baby...this reminds me of Mr. J......if I did agree to marry him when he proposed....yeah, I should have give birth to our very first born soon or later! Yet, if I marry him , I would never meet Mr. D......or even Mr. L and Mr. HK , even I never truly fall into Mr. L and Mr. HK, yet, they still play a small part in my life......Mr. L taught me how to drink wine (I finally found out they are only the basic after years ~ but without him, I don't even know how to drink) and Mr. HK taught me what's the meaning of patience......
Sometimes, I do blame all my Exes, especially Mr. D.....it's not fair to say that to Mr. D, but ....I was spoiled by my exes before I met Mr. D...and Mr. D ....he used to come back after all the crazy acts I have done......How could he do it? My acts were way too crazy ~
And now...after I came back to HKG for good....guys who I met, no matter where they grew up......it just ...we can't go thorough the time of letting them to hold my hand ........I really hate myself for this!
There was one guy, I did like, and he did finally hold my hand......yet, for some reasons, we can't go further, and I also put a stop sign once I know what would happen in the future!
What is happening with me? Why Mr. D still live in my heart?
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