Granny......

Tonight, I saw my granny's face for the very last time......she looks so difference, totally difference from the granny who used to talk silly with me ......

Even though I am not young, and three of my grandparent has passed away ......granny was the very first person who I was around since she was not feeling well......

And......this is the very first funeral I was actually involved into ...... the whole process was shocking, I nearly burst into tears for quite a few times......but I have held my tears...as ....granny finally release from the pain......she was so sad at the end of her life, as ...being an independence person like her, she hates to lose her ability of taking care herself....As granny has a very strong mind, family told me that she always try to walk, even her body is not really able to during her last stage... she would walk whenever she able to ......

I still remember when I was a kid......I was a bit scared of her...unlike other grandparent, she won't talk to us! Whenever she knew we would be going to her house, she would buy some soft drinks and put them in her fridge. Once we said hello to her, she would told us to get soft drinks from her fridge, then, she would go out, either to work, or to hang out with her friends. Also, she acts like a man sometimes......totally difference from my grandma (the one from my father side). Even she was at home, she would sit quietly in her usual spot and smoking her Marlboro (the original one, the red one) , watching us playing silly games.

Granny always in a hurry, there was one time, we try to set up a barbecue fire on the roof as usual, and took us a while with no success, without saying a word, she brought one big tank of Kerosene and newspapers, claimed she would set the barbecue fire for us within a second...we were all shocked! It was lucky my mum was there and stopped her crazy action. I still wonder...... what would happen if we really let her to set the barbecue fire with Kerosene and newspaper, would she burn down her own house?

Gosh......I miss her so much...... She is my forever hero!