After tonight......I rememeber the night I tried to raise the problem of my dad to Mr. D ages ago......

Mum was in so pain tonight, we never see this in our lifetime ...and my sis called the ambulance in mid-night......

As expected, my Dad went crazy and try to find any reason to yell at me and my sis, he is someone who can never ever handle any situation.....to be honest, I do wish he can "go away" before mum, as....I am not sure if I can handle him alone with my sis......
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I suddenly realize the reason I love Mr. D a lot is......he is the only man I love who I  believed he is able to stop my dad's  crazy reaction! As I know he always give strong statement towards others, and with the way he talks, my dad must scared! 

When I was in the ER just then, I suddenly realize, I am so weak, and I only want someone who are strong enough to stop my dad's craziness whenever thing happen, no matter that accident is  to my dad or any family member! 

Yet.....I do know deep in my heart, Mr. D only got the impression to others he can handle any accident,  yet, in reality, he must be a chicken.....I was expecting too much from him in the past, and i remember one night....I tried to raise the personal problem of my dad to him, and he yelled and said he didn't want to know, I really should remember that all the time! As ......if I really want to be with someone for the rest of my life, and vise verse, he has to face the problem I am facing as well.....

On the other hand, I can't be a good daughter - in - law for Mr. D's parent, how could I expect he can be the son-in law for my parent?

Gosh...I really have to stop my feeling for him, and looking forward!