Am I really over him? what is going on with me?

the feeling of fighting against my heart is crazy ......
one day, I will tell myself i am all good, the next day, I am feeling not ok......
I know...I have to let go , this is not good~
if I can't let go, there are no way I can move forward....

But what is going on? after a colleague told me I Can't find anyone in HKG.....I was...really out of my mind...a bit depress for her word......

Yet, deep in my heart, I do know me and Mr. D can never have any good ending, which is why I sent that e-mail out.

what is going on with me? seriously? What is going on?