I have to make myself to believe.....

I have to make myself to believe everything with MR. D was a dream......

There were a lot of time I wanna get an air ticket and go to Australia to seek for him, to tell him I am sorry......but ......I am no longer as emotional as before, I know I must break my heart badly if I do this , and I don't think I can handle this crisis with my previous job, which was soooooo stressful!  

Australia is a beautiful place, yet, I never think that is a place I love to stay before 30, I want to see around the world, I need the speed, I need the excited and I need the challenge!

I have to make myself to believe ...... everything I had with Mr. D is only a dream......