Read an article about "people we hate" , the article said this person we hate, maybe was sent by god to test us,and the first people I come up with, it's her, the pain in the ass, who played an important character in the plot of me and Mr. D.
I knew the day when Mr. D first met her, and that's my nightmare began~ Newy is such a small place, and I was working with her dad in the same restaurant. After a while, her dad started to say all the humiliating things in font of me and of course , behind me, he even said that I was a slut and I must know all the tricks in bed to let Mr. D being tempted in my face.
I didn't really know what was happening before, so, what I thought was maybe because he is uneducated, and he always say things with no sense, normally after after he humiliates me, I smile and walk away. After a while, I can't stand it anymore, felt offended, I totally ignored him, don't even talk to him at all. Yet, he didn't stop saying things to humiliating me. One day when my boss took me home, she finally asked me what was happening ! I finally found out all this was because the father of my pain in the ass thought I stolen Mr. D from her. That's unacceptable for me, as I know I already be with Mr. D before the first day they met, with all the things he said, I never felt so humiliated in my life before! If I have destroyed someone's relationship, I do deserve to face this humiliation, yet, I never do this!!!!!!
However, I didn't handle my part well! I should have talk to Mr. D about my feeling in calm, rather than kept all feeling inside myself, and burst out my anger when I can't keep it anymore. It's not healthy, and it's so immature to handle this problem. How can Mr. D told that girl to stop her dad? it's hard for him to do so. He did tried to bring me to dinner with the group, I should stay calm and try to be friend with her, and tell her my feeling with careful wording, rather than drank off a whole bottle of wine myself and start a fight with Mr. D after the dinner. I was so stupid. Maybe that's a chance god arranged to test how was I going to handle her, yet, I picked the very wrong way to express my feeling.
o..and with my "control freak " character, I saw SMS among them (yes, bad Clipse), one of the SMS was she ask him to break up with me, I was like, what the fxxx again! And there were time that she did thigns so out of the limited even I was there, things that a woman should never do when someone's girlfriend is right there.Don't say because I am Asian, I thought that they are more Asian than I in somehow.
I knew I can't blame her for all this happen, Mr. D may send out mix message to her dad and even her, and if I can handle this in calm with a mature way, most of the painful memory may gone.
On boxing day 2010,(yea, years later)...... I saw her picture from my facebook home, from woman's six sense, I can tell who that woman is from her group photos, and as to confirm I was right, I click into her album, and yes, I was right, she is the name I knew around last Christmas time, and I burst into tears, finally facing the fact ...
To be honest, after seeing her a few time (I don't even talk to her ), deep in my heart, I know she is simply native and she is a nice person, yet, she is the pain in the ass for me! I have to get rid of her from my life, I can't let her to annoys my emotion evens in facebook! So I finally deleted her from my facebook, and I felt great after that : ) ...btw, I never understand why she wanna add me in her facebook,I never really talk to her, but for my side...I thought ...maybe I can try to be friend with her by facebook when I accept her request.
5 January 2011
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